Ahh so today was really weird. My friend gave me an Aderall pill to help with not being focused and because i probably have ADHD (maybe?). I took the pill in the middle of the day and lets just say it was insane. It felt so amazing, not being exhausted, not overthinking, able to do my work finally. WITHOUT DISTRACTION. Later I realized that when i wasn't doing anything that I just wasn't thinking. At all. I had to be actively doing something to be thinking. And even then it was kind of hard to do so. I didn't realize it was extremely illegal to take the pill because it is a prescription medicine and I wasn't prescribed it. I just assumed for some reason that it was an over the counter thing. It is not. I was talking to another friend about how it was like i wasn't thinking almost at all, and I mentioned the pill. She said "he gave you adderall??" in a tone that meant I should not have taken it. I then got the worst panic/anxiety attack i have ever had. I went to the bathroom to try and calm myself down but it juast wasn't working. I started to dissociate a bit and tried so hard to connect back to reality. Eventually I went back to class but I just want it to wear off. I genuinely feel stupid with it in my system. I mean like when i didn't have it, I would think and think and have wonderful thoughts and ideas. When I took the pill, it was empty. I feel like a piece of shit now. Hopefully i research next time before taking drugs from anyone... I swore to myself I would never do that but oh well. Life is life.
11/21/2025
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if there was one person in the whole world who I'd say is the best ranfren cosplayer, it would have to be @o0_ing0live on tiktok. Their facial anatomy looks JUST like luther and the catmen. it also still matches the other characters just as well. It gives me tingles...
11/17/2025
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I FINALLY FOUND A GIRL WHO (maybe) LIKES ME AND SHES SO AMAZING OMG. Her voice, her smile, her eyes, her personality, literally everything about her i love. and she cares about me too. i just dont know how she feels. And ive been giving hints everywhere, but I have no idea if she understands them. I LOVE HER SO MUCH THO
10/12/2025
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My official favorite music genre ever is Vkei. There's tons of genres i like but with vkei i can find a new one I've never heard before but i will still love it. ALSO IM GETTING MY FIRST REAL SKATEBOARD TODAY! (I'm very excited)
08/31/2025