I'm not sure how long i have left to edit this site. ill probably have to log out for a while because of my dad. he still might see all of this anyways so i might want to unlink it. He likes going through my things and if he starts reading things on here its game over for me. I just convinced him to replace taking my camp with some essay thing i dont even know the details about. i dont feel like i really even did anythinng. it was really only i lied about a packet, got a bad grade on it, then got a 90 on my final and now i have an 85 instead of 86 in english. I dont know if hes keeping my apps turned on still or if he just forgot to turn them back off but i really hope he lets me use it during the summer.
06/03/2025
Sometimes in social groups when i have one main friend and most or the rest are friends with that person i feel like im a bother. i cant help it, ive always been that way. I have a friend right now that ive gotten close to and weve called every day for the pas probably week at this point. today we were playing a game and 2 of her friends were there. she was being really silly and interacting with them alot. any time i talked she did pay attention at least once but she almost immediately looked away to the others. maybe im just not being interactive enough like i was before. maybe im just jealous. that reminds me... same day, today. she texted me asking if i was jealous. i know it was a joke but i really wanted to say yes. it wasnt that bad but i was already in a bad mood and still am. then when all i said was ":( 💔" she asked what was wrong. i told her i was sad, she asked why, and when i told her about the camp she was really dismissive about it as if she didnt care anymore. its probably just me because i tend to see peoples actions as thinking less of me, especially when they show lots of care before. its probably because im a leo. shes also a leo. youd think then that she would know the feeling. maybe she does, but she definitely doesnt act upon it. so whatever. i really hope she sees this because i know she looks at ny site. ill probably link it to the home page. the only sad thing is that she doesnt really read.
05/30/2025
im tired and hungry (1:56 am)
05/22/2025
ive been dissasociating lately. maybe its because im getting back into Ranfren. no that can't be it. its probably because im going back to my dads in maximum 3 weeks. i dont like him.
05/17/2025
soo theres some guy i met and hes kinda really weird but also really fun so im in a pickle
04/28/2025
A certain friend of mine called Bora "Mr. Alien" and Mally "Miss Brat"
04/24/2025